Thursday, January 31, 2013

What is sleep?




Sleep and I have been drifting apart ever since August 29, 2012 hit, the day when school resumed and I began my junior year in high school. Yes, I have chosen to challenge myself with my AP classes, which are incredibly amazing and painful at the same time. The subjects are incredible and my mind just bursts from all the information that I soak in but where the topics are so wonderful and mind-blowing, the small homework load that I get from my teachers balances all those happy thoughts with restless evenings and nights spent working and studying. The small homework load, that's what they think they give. Hey, two and a half hours (on the easiest days) per AP class, about an hour to two and a half for my other classes. Let's see what seven classes take away from me each night. 3+3+3+1= 10. Wow, only ten hours? I spend about eight to eight and a half hours in school, and the next nine to ten hours working on homework and studying? Hmm, a day has twenty four hours and I spend  approximately eighteen to nineteen hours for each of the five weekdays just on school.



I'm not complaining about school though. All the work I've put into my studies have gone perfectly well for me so far. There are many things slapped and secured into my brain for the quizzes and tests in the future. It's just that I'm an insomniac, like Adam Young, or the man known as Owl City, very popular a few years back. I finish all my work, and feeling so accomplished, I lay down and close my eyes, happy to deserve the one thing that every person craves, sleep. Sleep, so I can fly away in my dreams and meet different people, travel to different places and roam free in my imagination. Instead of sleep, I find myself staring off into the darkness, sometimes for an hour, sometimes three. It's so frustrating. Counting sheep doesn't seem to help anymore and neither does the music. My body is ready but my brain just isn't.

I lay there wondering when will I get the rest I crave. It cannot be stress that's pulling me away since I don't stress easily. I do stress, I mean my friends have found two white hairs on my head this year, which is so sad, but it surely isn't keeping me from my sleep. What is sleep? When will I get to experience it and take advantage of it? Will I have to wait until another day off of school or do I have to wait until summer? Just another day, and it's going to be another night of being an insomniac.

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